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Everything to G.A.I.N

A Farewell Address by Julie McAllen

Thank you for reading this blog. The fruitage of the Spirit blog began in March 2009, set up by my friend Linda Angeles. Linda and I never actually met in person, but got to know one another through an on line support group for ex-Jehovah’s Witnesses.

I am thankful to Linda who got me started in the world of blogging nearly 7 years ago. And thank you readers for your time, prayers, and encouraging words during the years I contributed to this particular site. The last article I wrote here was offered on May 16, 2014. You’ll note this article you’re reading now is my first and last offering for 2015. I had a case of writer’s block brought on by discouragement from the negative comments I had been getting from people who viewed the ministry I’d been called to as of no value. It affected my heart to the point that I questioned why I bothered to pray for certain people or offer words of encouragement. Thus my last post here questioning how to continue in my “Sweet hour of prayer.” I found a strange connection with Jeremiah at that time and even now the words I wrote in that blog remind me of what this season has been about.

Jeremiah got a taste of what it is to be called by God. He knows what it feels like to be His spokesman and intercessor. And he just wants to die. It’s no fun, it’s causing him such personal pain that he is even willing to give up his relationship with the one who called him. But from the depths of his soul, he remembers how God’s word filled him and gave him joy. He’s not ready to give up on that, but he questions the hand that commissioned him to this indignation and now asks “will you indeed be to me like a deceptive stream with water that is unreliable?” (Jeremiah 15:18)
Can’t you just hear Jeremiah’s bi-polar prayer, “God, I love you so much, I am willing. Send me….. But God… I’m beginning to doubt the words I received. Yes, I ate them with joy, but maybe they are unreliable? How can I possibly be your spokesman when I see only this rotten fruit from my efforts and now you’re even telling me to stop praying for them? I give up.”
The prophet was going through the refining fire. The compassion inside this man was now turning to hatred. Jeremiah’s heart became entangled with too much compassion toward a people needing discipline. Where was Jeremiah’s focus? On God or on these people? And this is where God had to step in and remind Jeremiah of his commission as a spokesman.

Entanglement and Focus. Rest assured, this uncomfortable season has birthed some articles on those topics, but they will not appear here. This is in fact my last offering on Fruitage of the Spirit.

Thank you for 7 years of readership here. All my articles, along with Linda’s and some others, are still archived here in Fruitage of the Spirit. Some of those offerings will be reworked or simply linked to my new blog address along with some “fresh fruit.” Nothing is lost and I have everything to G.A.I.N.

G.A.I.N is an acronym for the title of my new blog. The letters stand for Go Away, I’m Naked!

If you visit that site, please note that the first article is a WARNING. Please read it before blindly subscribing. After you’ve received the warning, I understand if you choose not to subscribe or follow my writings. That is the purpose for the warning. My goal is not how many subscribers or “likes” I can get, my desire is simply to write. You’re welcome to take a peek, but if you’re offended by what I choose to expose of my thoughts, you can always Go Away, I’m Naked!

2016 is going to be a year of great G.A.I.N!

Keep yourself in God’s love, Julie

December 31, 2015 - Posted by | Expressions, Uncategorized


  1. I hate you’re leaving and I hate the negativity that you received. Although I did not read all of your articles, the ones that I read were very interesting, comical, thought-provoking, and enjoyable. I hope you find joy in your other pursuits. And I hope your hour of prayer continues because many people are healed by it (me included). There will always be haters. Love you! Steph McKithan Aka, “girlforGod”, you knew me when… Lol


    Comment by Stephanie McKithan | December 31, 2015

    • Thanks Steph. Just switching blog sites really, that’s all. I’ve had a lot more “positivity” along with the way and you are certainly one of those joys… and joyness….

      Comment by Julie McAllen | January 2, 2016

  2. Julie, God has blessed you richly as the carrier of His Words…to encourage and admonish..I praise Him that He has chosen you and entrusted you with His Holy Word..”press on” dear one, you are blessed and as Rosanne use to tell me. “Dogs don’t bark at parked cars”…so you go girl…I don’t see any of God’s chosen being very popular in the bible especially when they were called to present His truth. But we are here to please HIM.

    Comment by Marcene Underwood | December 31, 2015

    • Thank you Marcene. You have ALWAYS been very encouraging to me and to so many others. May God bless ya real good.

      Comment by Julie McAllen | January 2, 2016

  3. Hi Julie. I’m so sorry you had such negativity and especially sorry that I haven’t posted articles. I continue to write, but the Spirit hasn’t led me to post. I have books of journals I’ve completed that I wish someday I can begin to blog again, but for now I just keep writing. Thank for the last 7 years of keeping up with this blog. This was truly a blessing for many, especially me. Through your writing I’ve gained so much understanding of God’s words as the WT indoctrination worked its way out of my belief system. I look forward to many more years of our friendship.

    Comment by Linda | January 1, 2016

    • Thank you so much for introducing me to blogging back in 2009 Linda! I hand the fruitage site back over to you… now ya got some pressure to post hee hee…. but please don’t delete any of my stuff as I will be accessing it and reworking a few articles to move over to my new site. It will be handy to have it all in one spot. Many, many sincere thanks my friend! Keep yourself in God’s love, Julie

      Comment by Julie McAllen | January 2, 2016

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