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Everything to G.A.I.N

A Farewell Address by Julie McAllen

Thank you for reading this blog. The fruitage of the Spirit blog began in March 2009, set up by my friend Linda Angeles. Linda and I never actually met in person, but got to know one another through an on line support group for ex-Jehovah’s Witnesses.

I am thankful to Linda who got me started in the world of blogging nearly 7 years ago. And thank you readers for your time, prayers, and encouraging words during the years I contributed to this particular site. The last article I wrote here was offered on May 16, 2014. You’ll note this article you’re reading now is my first and last offering for 2015. I had a case of writer’s block brought on by discouragement from the negative comments I had been getting from people who viewed the ministry I’d been called to as of no value. It affected my heart to the point that I questioned why I bothered to pray for certain people or offer words of encouragement. Thus my last post here questioning how to continue in my “Sweet hour of prayer.” I found a strange connection with Jeremiah at that time and even now the words I wrote in that blog remind me of what this season has been about.

Jeremiah got a taste of what it is to be called by God. He knows what it feels like to be His spokesman and intercessor. And he just wants to die. It’s no fun, it’s causing him such personal pain that he is even willing to give up his relationship with the one who called him. But from the depths of his soul, he remembers how God’s word filled him and gave him joy. He’s not ready to give up on that, but he questions the hand that commissioned him to this indignation and now asks “will you indeed be to me like a deceptive stream with water that is unreliable?” (Jeremiah 15:18)
Can’t you just hear Jeremiah’s bi-polar prayer, “God, I love you so much, I am willing. Send me….. But God… I’m beginning to doubt the words I received. Yes, I ate them with joy, but maybe they are unreliable? How can I possibly be your spokesman when I see only this rotten fruit from my efforts and now you’re even telling me to stop praying for them? I give up.”
The prophet was going through the refining fire. The compassion inside this man was now turning to hatred. Jeremiah’s heart became entangled with too much compassion toward a people needing discipline. Where was Jeremiah’s focus? On God or on these people? And this is where God had to step in and remind Jeremiah of his commission as a spokesman.

Entanglement and Focus. Rest assured, this uncomfortable season has birthed some articles on those topics, but they will not appear here. This is in fact my last offering on Fruitage of the Spirit.

Thank you for 7 years of readership here. All my articles, along with Linda’s and some others, are still archived here in Fruitage of the Spirit. Some of those offerings will be reworked or simply linked to my new blog address along with some “fresh fruit.” Nothing is lost and I have everything to G.A.I.N.

G.A.I.N is an acronym for the title of my new blog. The letters stand for Go Away, I’m Naked!

If you visit that site, please note that the first article is a WARNING. Please read it before blindly subscribing. After you’ve received the warning, I understand if you choose not to subscribe or follow my writings. That is the purpose for the warning. My goal is not how many subscribers or “likes” I can get, my desire is simply to write. You’re welcome to take a peek, but if you’re offended by what I choose to expose of my thoughts, you can always Go Away, I’m Naked!

2016 is going to be a year of great G.A.I.N!

Keep yourself in God’s love, Julie

December 31, 2015 Posted by | Expressions, Uncategorized | 6 Comments


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